Tormented

Today, I realized how distant I have become from everyone around me. Not only that, but I have just completely lost interest in everything. I no longer feel like going anywhere or doing anything. Some have said it is depression, but I'm not so sure and to be quite honest, it scares me. I want so bad to fix this, but how can you fix something when you don't even know what it is? I've become really impatient and grumpy lately as well. It's gotten to the point where I no longer want to be around people, but I try to be as social as possible as to not hurt my friends' feelings. I don't want them to think that it's something they did that made me be like this. Maybe church and God is the answer. Maybe once I find I church that I like and really get involved in it, all of this will just go away. I hope.

"I've got to leave; this house is not a home."